| I went to a writing club today!
Current mood:  cheerful
Category: Friends Today I went with Annie and Amanda and wrote. So I thought about a good story in my past and I wrote about it.
This is what I ended up with! (I know it needs to be edited! but hey!)
Writing Piece:
It was my senior year in High School and today was the second day of school. I looked at my schedule and the next class I had was French class year 2.
I was taking 2 years of foreign language because it was required for college in the schools I was thinking about going.
I got to class a little early and sat in the second row 3rd seat from the front. I don't know why I chose that seat but I did.
I was minding my own business and looking at people as they went into class when a girl walked into class a little later but with a lot of purpose.
She strided strongly to the 4th row and 3 rows back. I noticed her because she had longer blond hair and lots of colorful flourescent "things" about her. You could tell she was a very interesting individual.
She didn't appear to notice me at all though.
I don't remember much about class that day, but I left and later I went and signed up for cross-country season. I was a little late because I couldn't find where everyone was working out. But when I went into the after school activity the "New Girl" was there doing cross country.
I didn't talk to her that day, but the next day the Cross Country coaches took us up old Kingsbury grade. I was huffing and puffing near the last of the pack, I wasn't in great shape but I was doing cross-country to train and get in shape for track that year. As we climbed up the grade I noticed the New Girl was right behind me trying very hard.
I remember looking back and her breasts were bouncing up and down and I remember the thought going through my mind. Does that hurt? I also noticed that somehow whatever she was wearing on her top appeared to be arranged in such a way that you could see everything.
I pretended I didn't notice.
As I went around another corner and I kept on being amazed that she was keeping up with me.
She yelled "wait!".
I was startled she was a ways behind me but she wanted me to wait for her.
I did.
She caught up to me and we had the greatest conversation ever in the hot Nevada heat. She told me about where she came from, how the teacher teaching the french class didn't know anything. We talked about everything and I knew at that point she was trying so hard to catch up with me in running so she could talk with me.
She really seemed to like me. From then on we were best friends.
Her name was Jessica McIntosh. In french class through the entire year the teacher "randomly" seemed to put me in groups with her. She said that she had a older boyfriend elsewhere so I knew she wasn't available; but I did find myself attracted to her.
Jessica would go to lunch with me fairly often riding in my old White Chevelle which she named the "White Dragon".
Jessica even made a bumper sticker which I put in the car to name it. We did class projects together and when the a Dance came along I considered asking her out on a date... but I knew she was unavailable as she was already in a relationship with someone else. I knew she would reject me if I asked her on a date.
So we were very good friends.
But all things came to an end. Jessica was 2 grades under me, and while we were friends I graduated from High School.
And I realized since I was out of high school it would be "inappropriate" of me to really stay friends with her as she was still in High School.
A while later though on my last day at CVI I found Jessica just started a job where I was working. Jessica was SOO happy to see me, and asked me if we could get together do stuff and things. But it was my last day and somehow I never followed up on it.
Several years later I was working in Reno for a company and I came back into Reno from snowboarding that day with my sister and some friends. We stopped at Barnes & Nobles for coffee and Jessica was working there.
I was so happy to see Jessica again; and I knew right then that we had a chance to be friends again, as I had a lot of fun hanging out with her. Jessica seemed so pleased to see me, giving me multiple hugs, offering free coffee and everything.
I couldn't really catch up with her because of all of the people with me, but I was going to go back and see her and see how her life was going.
My sister told me that it would have meant a lot for me to go and see her again.
I stopped by B&N several times but didn't see her until one day she was there. I asked her if she wanted to go to dinner and we could catch up. She asked when and I said what about today? She seemed to light up, told me that she had a boyfriend that she had to call and tell him not to pick her up and yes as long as she got a ride from me because she didn't have a car.
That evening I picked her up from Barnes & Noble. We had a great time and from what I could tell her current relationship with her current boyfriend was very unpleasant and I could tell she wanted out; although she never went out and said that, at the end she asked me if I wanted to see her again. I said yes. She gave me her phone number and several hugs and made sure that I promised I would call her. I promised.
I talked to my sister and she heard through Rob that Jessica was going or had gone through some really hard times. My sister said that Jessica had a overdose of heroin on school property at college and wasn't talking with her family anymore. My sister said that she was pretty messed up right about now. I didn't really care she was my friend and I was just happy to get back.
At that time I was in the middle of moving from my apartment to a house I bought at 1609 Mountain Lane, Reno Nevada. I had a month and a half of living at my parents house in Carson City Nevada. As such I was moving and I didn't have a lot of time. I went to look for her phone number and it disappeared. I was staying at my Mom's house and I woke up in the morning and she went into my room and did the laundry.
I asked my Mom about the phone number but she said she didn't remember seeing it. I went through the trash next to the washing machine and dryer but it wasn't there.
I kept on trying back at B&N but I never found her. About a month later after checking quite a few times I was walking in B&N and was heading towards the exit when she walked in.
She headed right toward me and as she breezed past I tried to talk to her but she blew me off. I was stunned. I realized... maybe she was late, so I hung around some books pretending to look interested in something utterly boring.
I then saw Jessica at the cash register.
I walked up to Jessica and said Hi; when she looked at me she yelled at me, "I never want to see you in Barnes & Noble again". I was stunned... again. I couldn't think of a response.
I looked around and everyone in barnes and noble was looking at me. I couldn't think of a response. The thought went through my mind that I was the bad boyfriend who showed up at the nice girls work and bothered her. Everyone kept on looking at me like I was some freak. I felt absolutely terrible! But I remember very clearly thinking... she didn't say never to see her again, just never to see her in Barnes & Noble so at the back of my mind I thought... maybe someday I can fix this problem.
I avoided Barnes and Noble from then on; it gave me shivers down my spine to think about going in there because I knew she didn't want me in there anymore.
To several of my friends at that time I told them about this problem, but I just brushed it off like it was unimportant but inside I really felt hurt; like there was something I did but I didn't know what it was or what happened to her.
About 4-5 years later my cousin Jessica from Florida came up to Alaska and went through my year book and noticed Jessica's very long year book message and commented on it.
So I decided that 4-5 years should be enough and she never told me not to contact her again. Just never to see her at Barnes and Noble. So I sleuthed on the internet and made some calls and I managed to get Jessica's Mom and Dad's phone number, her sister Marcy, Jessica's phone number and her fiance's phone number.
I gave them a call leaving 2 voice messages on Jessica's cell phone and calling her fiance who I talked too.
Her fiance told me that she was not having anything to do with any of her friends in the past and that she went through a lot of trouble. I tried to see if I could talk with her but he wouldn't allow it. He thought I was some creep from the past. I felt bad again. He did tell me that she was doing better.
And so I lost a friend forever, and it really hurt that she didn't think of me as good of a person or even worth a call to even talk with.
And she still has the dance video project with me in it... I'd really like a copy, but it is gone forever.
I hope you liked it! I'm going to Perseverance Theater with Amanda and Annie now! 6:22 PM - 4 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove |
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